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November 21st, 2011

12:48 pm - Words.
I think I used to be a good writer. I just stumbled upon this once great site and spent awhile reading my old words all over my own and other peoples journals. So much of it I don't remember writing or even can figure out how I came up with such a combination of words.
But I am so gad that this is here. I fear that someday LiveJournal will be no more and all of these memories will be gone forever. I should print it all out.
It's so odd to re visit the feelings you had so many years ago about certain situations and feelings. How reading these old words can make your heart ache again for someone who is so long gone.
For the first year of my life, it it Thanksgiving week and I have zero holiday spirit. I have a roomful of decorations waiting to be taken out and I just can't bring myself to do it.
I was never good at endings.
Current Location: United States, California, Oroville
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Starlight, Muse

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April 18th, 2009

11:56 pm
bang bang boom. I wish I was as cool as I used to be.
Current Mood: restlessrestless

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May 24th, 2006

04:00 pm
I'm in Las Vegas. I'm in the worlds most boring seminar. I should be paying attention. It's not gonna happen.

I wanna go get drunk on the strip.

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May 1st, 2006

06:32 pm - What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas
I'm going to Las Vegas in 21 days. wahoo!! I have to spend 8 hours a days in a conference learning about boring work software! wahoo! I'm not 21, wahoo! I work Monday leave monday get home at 3am friday and then have to work at 7am!

W A H O O.

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January 28th, 2006

12:12 am
King Kong is most definately man's man movie. I'm sitting in a room with two guys who are watching it, and neither one of them hae seemed to notice that there has not been a full sentence in at least thirty minutes. This entire movie is conposed of grunts and screams. Its entirely absurd. Thank God for this computer so I didn't have to actually watch this.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed

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January 12th, 2006

05:54 am
I hate the way that life passes through these phases. My holiday season sure sucked.

1. My mom was in the hospital for Thanksgiving and Christmas, almost dead. that was fun.
2. My car conveniently decided to 'go to a better place' a month before I got my tax return.
3. My ex boyfriend who ripped my heart out a year ago decided that he wanted to get back together with me, regardless of the fact that I have a new boyfriend, whom I live with. And proceded to spend every day telling me all the most romantic things in the world telling me that he still loved me and wanted to marry me.
4. Said current relationship was quite strained partly due to all of the above
5. I live in fear daily of being fired from my great job, basically because I suck at it, and the harder I try, the worse I do.
6.. My life was basically pure misery.

As for 2006....

1. Mom is home, minus her memory of most of her life....
2. I emptied my entire savings {which gave me a small panic attack in the middle of the bank}, but I bought a fabulous new car, which I love, regardless of the fact that it costs me roughly $500 a month to own.
3. My best friend, who was there for me through all of this, who listened to all my problems and concerns, and worries, especially about my confusion on what to to about said ex boyfriend....decides that she is going to go behind my back like a dirty skank and start dating him.
4. Which in turn caused me to go all crazy phsyco ex, and also made me spend about 3 days with the constant urge to vomit.
5. On the upside, relationship with new boyfriend has improved dramatically. Actually a very good thing right now.
6. Still live in fear of being fired, which now adds on losing my car if such event took place.

I have pluses and minuses at the moment, but I feel like I'm headed on an upward slope.

ohhh, PS! I forgot to add that the roof of my apartment has fallen in in one spot, so it rains in my hallway!
Current Mood: exhaustedfrazzled

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January 8th, 2006

11:24 am - May as well cover all the bases.

Ahh, its road trippin' time once again. Watch out California, here I come and I have a 2.2L VTEC engine with a 5-speed stick shift. ah-hah.
I can actually go to Chico again, like whenever I want!

Sweet Action

Ohh I know you wanna see it


I wanna lick itCollapse )
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: Fallout Boy// XO

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December 30th, 2005

11:33 am
I really need to go back to work. I just watched The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants, and it made me cry. Like 8 times. I need something to do.

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December 28th, 2005

09:38 pm
Every time I see him it makes my heart burn and my mind ache because I can't figure out what to do.

I love being huddled in my corner, just listening to the rain hit the crooked roof. It somehow makes everything clear, and I don't stress about the million pressing issues that are happening in my life right now. I can just wrap myself in the blankets and pretend that nothing exists outside of the little golden room I'm in.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm bi-polar. The way I think and feel about something/someone can change in an instant.

I hate The Sims. That game makes me feel stupid.
Current Mood: sympatheticUn-loved

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December 24th, 2005

02:10 pm
I am losing my mind. My car broke down and I have 10 days off of work. Today is only day 1 and I'm already going completey stir crazy. Someone help me before I start going all Jack from the Shining.
Current Mood: distressedInsane
Current Music: Yellowcard//wasted on you

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